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The bullshit that comes with coming home. 
While my father and I have done a relatively good job of shutting up and not arguing over every damned thing you could think of, I am still NOT happy that I'm here.
Since I left for boarding school, 7 years ago, this town has only gotten worse. Worse in the sense of racism. Frankly, I'm quite sick of the judgmental looks, the stereotyping, that accusations, and the whispers behind my back. I am a fucking human, and I do notice these things. The sad part is, I seem to have to point this out more and more everywhere I go. And that isn't fair to me. 
Just because I'm Hispanic/Latina, doesn't mean that I'm going to steal shit, that I'm part of a gang, that I shouldn't be trusted, that I don't speak English, that I'm uneducated, that I'm a whore, that I have children, that I'm a stay-at-home-wife, that I want to get married or because I'm sitting alone- it means that I'm plotting something.
All of the above is a form of stereotyping that I have been shoved into in the past few weeks.
So what if I walk into a store. It's a fucking free country. If I walked in because I actually NEED something, I have the money to pay for it. So don't go looking at me like I'm about to steal from you. What a fucking joke.
Just because I have tattoos does not mean that I'm a part of any gang. I do not have gang related tattoos. For fucks sake, take a look at the ink, it's quite artfully done. Tattoos are a form of artistic expression, and 48% of Americans have either a tattoo or a piercing, that doesn't make me any different.
Just because I look Hispanic/Latina doesn't not mean that I don't speak English. I don't need shit spelled out to me like I'm deaf. I also don't need shit spelled out to me period. I guarantee that if I were the one talking, I would have said "fuck" or "shit" in the first three minutes (because I'd be telling you off) and I'm pretty sure that would indicate that I speak English. Secondly, I do not have an accent. Maybe a hint of a Southern one because I lived in the middle of the mountains of NC, but that's not enough of an accent to give me shit for.
I am quite educated as well. Boarding school, academically, street wise, mentally I'm older than I am physically. So don't even start me on the "uneducated" bit of crap. I am also not a whore. I do not sleep around, and I do not flirt with everyone on the fucking planet, so those people can piss off. Also, I don't know how walking around in sweat pants and tee-shirt makes me the whore.
I mean, whatthefuck?
I also do not have children. I'm nineteen years old for fucks sake. And yes, I know there's a show called "16 and pregnant", and I'm aware that there's a show called "Teen Mom". I got it. However, you do not see me on that show, nor do you see me walking around with a kid, so stop assuming shit. Also, as I have no children, that technically means that I'm not a stay-at-home-wife.
I am also NOT married. Would you look at that? 
I will get married when I feel the time is right, and there is someone out there who is decent enough to marry. 
And you know what that means? People need to stop coming up to me and giving speaking to me like they want to date me. If I don't give you the time of day, CLEARLY I'm not interested. This also means that you need not propose to me while I'm eating lunch at a shopping mall. I'm eating lunch, for fucks sake, and I DON'T KNOW YOU. Therefore, my answer is going to be a big fat N O! Christ, you people piss me off.
On top of all of that, just because I choose to sit alone somewhere does NOT mean that I'm up to no good, or that I'm plotting the world's end. For fuckssake. I'm sitting alone because a) I don't like you. b) you scare me. c) I get more shit done this way. d) I'm not interested in conversations with stupid people. e) I can think. f) I don't know you. g) because I fucking want to. Obviously if I were up to no good, and I was indeed plotting the world's end, that would have been done LONG ago, and I would currently be ruling the world. 
But, as you do NOT see me in charge, that obviously did not happen. Therefore, you need to stop looking at me all suspicious like, and get on with your life...assuming you have one, that is.
Seriously. I should not have to come home and deal with this sort of shit. I'm an adult. I'm educated. And I'm American. All of you haters need to hop off and leave me the hell alone. And the whispers behind my back, are going to lead to some major problems. There are these nice people called lawyers, and there is this nice place called court. Don't make me take you there. I was talking to my father last night, and he was just shaking his head at how stupid people can be. Honestly, neither he, nor I, thought that racism would be a problem for me. Clearly it is.
I'm so fucking done with you all.
While my father and I have done a relatively good job of shutting up and not arguing over every damned thing you could think of, I am still NOT happy that I'm here. Since I left for boarding school, 7 years ago, this town has only gotten worse. Worse in the sense of racism.
Frankly, I'm quite sick of the judgmental looks, the stereotyping, that accusations, and the whispers behind my back. I am a fucking human, and I do notice these things. The sad part is, I seem to have to point this out more and more everywhere I go. And that isn't fair to me. Just because I'm Hispanic/Latina, doesn't mean that I'm going to steal shit, that I'm part of a gang, that I shouldn't be trusted, that I don't speak English, that I'm uneducated, that I'm a whore, that I have children, that I'm a stay-at-home-wife, that I want to get married or because I'm sitting alone- it means that I'm plotting something.
All of the above is a form of stereotyping that I have been shoved into in the past few weeks.So what if I walk into a store. It's a fucking free country. If I walked in because I actually NEED something, I have the money to pay for it. So don't go looking at me like I'm about to steal from you.
What a fucking joke. Just because I have tattoos does not mean that I'm a part of any gang. I do not have gang related tattoos. For fucks sake, take a look at the ink, it's quite artfully done. Tattoos are a form of artistic expression, and 48% of Americans have either a tattoo or a piercing, that doesn't make me any different.
Just because I look Hispanic/Latina doesn't not mean that I don't speak English. I don't need shit spelled out to me like I'm deaf. I also don't need shit spelled out to me period. I guarantee that if I were the one talking, I would have said "fuck" or "shit" in the first three minutes (because I'd be telling you off) and I'm pretty sure that would indicate that I speak English. Secondly, I do not have an accent. Maybe a hint of a Southern one because I lived in the middle of the mountains of NC, but that's not enough of an accent to give me shit for.
I am quite educated as well. Boarding school, academically, street wise, mentally I'm older than I am physically. So don't even start me on the "uneducated" bit of crap. I am also not a whore. I do not sleep around, and I do not flirt with everyone on the fucking planet, so those people can piss off. Also, I don't know how walking around in sweat pants and tee-shirt makes me the whore.
I mean, whatthefuck? I also do not have children. I'm nineteen years old for fucks sake. And yes, I know there's a show called "16 and pregnant", and I'm aware that there's a show called "Teen Mom". I got it. However, you do not see me on that show, nor do you see me walking around with a kid, so stop assuming shit. Also, as I have no children, that technically means that I'm not a stay-at-home-wife.
I am also NOT married. Would you look at that? I will get married when I feel the time is right, and there is someone out there who is decent enough to marry. And you know what that means? People need to stop coming up to me and giving speaking to me like they want to date me. If I don't give you the time of day, CLEARLY I'm not interested. This also means that you need not propose to me while I'm eating lunch at a shopping mall. I'm eating lunch, for fucks sake, and I DON'T KNOW YOU. Therefore, my answer is going to be a big fat N O! Christ, you people piss me off. On top of all of that, just because I choose to sit alone somewhere does NOT mean that I'm up to no good, or that I'm plotting the world's end.
For fuckssake. I'm sitting alone because a) I don't like you. b) you scare me. c) I get more shit done this way. d) I'm not interested in conversations with stupid people. e) I can think. f) I don't know you. g) because I fucking want to. Obviously if I were up to no good, and I was indeed plotting the world's end, that would have been done LONG ago, and I would currently be ruling the world. But, as you do NOT see me in charge, that obviously did not happen. Therefore, you need to stop looking at me all suspicious like, and get on with your life...assuming you have one, that is. Seriously. I should not have to come home and deal with this sort of shit. I'm an adult. I'm educated. And I'm American. All of you haters need to hop off and leave me the hell alone. And the whispers behind my back, are going to lead to some major problems. There are these nice people called lawyers, and there is this nice place called court. Don't make me take you there.
I was talking to my father last night, and he was just shaking his head at how stupid people can be. Honestly, neither he, nor I, thought that racism would be a problem for me. Clearly it is. I'm so fucking done with you all.
Goodbye
What do you mean goodbye? :paranoid:
Well, it's goodbye from this account. AngeliqueRaindrops (https://www.deviantart.com/angeliqueraindrops) is closing & will no longer be a usuable account. I'm turning off deviations, journals, poll, etc. Why? Because this account is associated with my "baby work." All the stuff that I have on here shows how I got to where I am today. HOWEVER, "AngeliqueRaindrops" is not a professional name and I will get nowhere using that name for work-based use. That and I need a change. This account is associated with so many things, both good and bad, that I just need a little room to break free.
I, like my photography, have matured, and it's time to move on
BIG BIG QUESTION and I Need Advice...Help Me. :)
A long time ago, when shit was going wrong someone suggested that I close this account and start over. And I told them that was an INSANE idea, as I put SO much effort into being here. However, I am no longer going by AngeliqueRaindrops in my photography. Everything is watermarked as Josefina. So my question is, do I restart?
Keep this account open to maintain copyright, but not respond to anything here...there are a lot of memories good and bad hidden away in my inbox, comments, messages, and old photos...so that's not why I couldn't close this account completely...well that and the damn copyright of my images. I am very happy that several
Booking and Epic T-Shirt Design.
As the days go on, I'm getting busier. This is a good thing. Especially when people pay me. :B
My website is in the works, and business cards are on the way.
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Sometime between now and July 17th, I shall be working with:
Brit Austin, Tabitha D, Asher and hopefully Tiffanie Ford.
July 17th-21nd: Working with SoulDuals (https://www.deviantart.com/soulduals) and Nixeblue (https://www.deviantart.com/nixeblue)
July 23rd: Baby shower.
In August: Graduation party, Stephanie Offensive and Courtney Suder
I'm still open for the rest of June, and the beginning and end of July. This is the last chance to get TFP shoots. Once August comes I will be charging for shoots, as I'm missing school
HEY HEY HEY!
Guess what? :B
I'm writing this journal from my bed. Ya know what this means? :excited: I FINALLY HAVE INTERNET AT HOME! :dance: So now I can stalk all of you from my bed. Rather than having to go to the dreaded community center. :XD: So I'm just going to go over here in this little corner and dance.
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Anyways, I'm home from my massive trip! I got to work with shelbyuuu (https://www.deviantart.com/shelbyuuu), SaraJennifer (https://www.deviantart.com/sarajennifer), Sitara Bird, PhotogenicXpression (https://www.deviantart.com/photogenicxpression), Miss-MischiefX (https://www.deviantart.com/miss-mischiefx) (a new photo up soon), and Shauna Lavigne. I am home from now until July 17th.. Then I'm traveling down to Atlanta. Where I will be working with SoulDuals (https://www.deviantart.com/soulduals) and her
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Ah man, i'm surprised these people don't get punched more often. I know I would
Around where I live if you're not a whore then you must have a baby. Cos ya know, those are the only options for any girl between the age of 14 - 20. Obviously.
Around where I live if you're not a whore then you must have a baby. Cos ya know, those are the only options for any girl between the age of 14 - 20. Obviously.